change - to become different

It is human nature to fear change. But change is one of those inevitable things in life. Over the past two years I have experienced a lot of change. The roles that once defined my life have changed and matured into new ones.

Two years ago I was a college student studying to become a nurse and make an impact on the world. Today, I am an RN. Every day that I go to work I have to potential to change someone's life, to make a difference to each one of my patients. Two years ago I did not know what it was like to come face to face with life and death on an every day basis. Today, I deal with people's lives. I experience their pain and their sadness, their joy and their strengths. I have also experienced those last moments in a person's life before they breath their last. I never imagined when I was in school how hard, yet rewarding this career would be.

Two years ago I was single. I had not yet found that special person. Today, I'm engaged. It's hard to believe the things that I have experienced in two years. I had my first kiss. Even that seems like so long ago. I fell in love in those two years. That feeling is something I could never write. Things may not always be sunshine and roses, but I know that there is someone waiting for me when I get home. I can't believe I'm getting married. If you had asked me two years ago if I would be married by the time I was 25, I would have laughed in your face. But today? Today we talked about details and when we wanted to have the wedding.

Two years ago I lived at home with my mom. Today, I live on my own. Sometimes I think that part is a mistake. Sometimes I would love nothing more than to be dependent on my mom again. But most of the time the independence is worth it. I knew there would come a time when I had to move out and grow up, I just didn't imagine it would be so soon. I guess that's just another change in my life to accept.

There are a million and one ways that I have changed. I guess you would just say that I'm growing up. I'm becoming the person I'm supposed to be. I just hope that I will always stay true to myself and be what God wants me to be.