Tuesday, November 4, 2008

life - the general or universal condition of human existence

I have recently been reminded just how precious and fragile a life can be and how easily people can throw it away. I was speaking with a woman at who has a friend that found out she was pregnant. Perfect family situation, but she just does not want the baby and is seriously considering abortion.

This really made me think long and hard about my feelings on the issue. It makes me mad that people can even make the decision to throw a life away. To be that indifferent to another human being, to a life that you created.

My future sister in law is pregnant and it's been a rocky road for her. For awhile the chances of this baby surviving were very slim. Thinking about her and all those other mothers who struggle to have children and all those mothers who are unable to have children... it just makes me mad that someone could be selfish enough to just throw a baby away.

A mistake for someone could turn into the biggest reward in another woman's life, if only people would choose adoption instead of abortion.

When my mom was pregnant with me, she was advised by her doctor to have an abortion due to a medical condition she had. Thank God my mother was someone who did not believe in abortion.

Who knows what all these unborn babies could turn into? They could do some great things if they were just given the precious gift of life.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

child·like - Like or befitting a child, as in innocence, trustfulness, or candor

As I'm sitting here, I can hear Alex's 3 year old niece playing in the other room. She's laughing and having a good time. There's no worry there. There's no planning for the future. Just living in the moment.

I wish sometimes that life could be lived through the eyes of a child. But we all grow up. We pile on all the worries, troubles and thoughts of adults. We have to worry about paying our bills, taking care of our houses, gas prices, you name it. But when we were children, none of that mattered. We trusted our parents and family to take care of us. There was a certain innocence. We didn't know or understand all the grown up stuff.

Of course we were dependent on those older than us, but it was the trust that we had in others that is so special. It's so hard for us to trust people as we grow up. We get hurt by someone and that trust is lost. Children trust, even if they get hurt. Their parents could be the worst parents in the world and they would still trust that they would be cared for.

I decided to go in the other room and play with Jordyn just for a few minutes. And for a few minutes I was transported back to being carefree. Laughing and playing, not worrying about a thing. Life would be so much simpler if we could do a little more laughing and not as much worrying.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

change - to become different

It is human nature to fear change. But change is one of those inevitable things in life. Over the past two years I have experienced a lot of change. The roles that once defined my life have changed and matured into new ones.

Two years ago I was a college student studying to become a nurse and make an impact on the world. Today, I am an RN. Every day that I go to work I have to potential to change someone's life, to make a difference to each one of my patients. Two years ago I did not know what it was like to come face to face with life and death on an every day basis. Today, I deal with people's lives. I experience their pain and their sadness, their joy and their strengths. I have also experienced those last moments in a person's life before they breath their last. I never imagined when I was in school how hard, yet rewarding this career would be.

Two years ago I was single. I had not yet found that special person. Today, I'm engaged. It's hard to believe the things that I have experienced in two years. I had my first kiss. Even that seems like so long ago. I fell in love in those two years. That feeling is something I could never write. Things may not always be sunshine and roses, but I know that there is someone waiting for me when I get home. I can't believe I'm getting married. If you had asked me two years ago if I would be married by the time I was 25, I would have laughed in your face. But today? Today we talked about details and when we wanted to have the wedding.

Two years ago I lived at home with my mom. Today, I live on my own. Sometimes I think that part is a mistake. Sometimes I would love nothing more than to be dependent on my mom again. But most of the time the independence is worth it. I knew there would come a time when I had to move out and grow up, I just didn't imagine it would be so soon. I guess that's just another change in my life to accept.

There are a million and one ways that I have changed. I guess you would just say that I'm growing up. I'm becoming the person I'm supposed to be. I just hope that I will always stay true to myself and be what God wants me to be.